I'm The Better Choice

WHEN HE LOOKS AT HER
HER BEAUTY CALLS TO HIM
BUT HIS ARROGANCE
MAKES HIM DEAPH
ALL THAT SHE WANTS
IS FOR HIM TO NOTICE HER
BUT IS SELFISHNESS
MAKES HIM BLIND
HES NOT LISTENING
HES NOT LISTENING
HES NOT LISTENING
TO HER HEART
AND HE WILL NEVER KNOW
HE WILL NEVER KNOW
HE WILL NEVER KNOW
HOW SHE FEELS
I WANT you to know
I WANT you to know
I WANT MY
BABY NOW
I WANT
I WANT
I WANT MY
BABY NOW
　
EVERY TIME HIS FOOLISHNESS
TAKES OVER HIM HE CHANGES
TO A BEAST
AND EVERYTIME SHE CALLS TO HIM
HE RUNS WITH HIS TAIL BETWEEN HIS LEGS
BUT IF IT WERE ME THAT YOU
WERE AFTER
YOU WOULD NEVER HAVE TO
CHASE AFTER ME AGAIN
BUT SINCE I LONG FOR YOU
AND SINCE I FELL FOR YOU
I WILL NEVER MOVE
FROM YOUR SIDE
　
　

Pointed Fingers

I WAS IN THE PLAYROOM
I HEARD YOUR THUNDER BREW

IT STARTED FOR SOME PERFUME
I NEVER EVEN KNEW

YOU STORMED DOWN THE HALL
YOUR EYES WERE SCREAMING WRATH

ALL OVER A WATERY FRAGRANCE
THAT MADE YOU SMELL LIKE DEATH


WHY AM I ALWAYS
THE ONE YOU POINT TO

WHY AM I ALWAYS
YOUR FIRST TO BLAME

THOUGH YOU’LL NEVER KNOW
THE PRICE YOU PAY FOR HONESTY

SOMETHING THAT YOU NEVER SAW IN ME

Mother

I don’t know if you can hear me
When I’m calling out to you
You claim to hear the crowd

I try my hardest just to love you
But when I hold the roses
I get stabbed by the thorns

By blood I’m your child
But a stranger through your mouth
And from your mind
And I never knew why

But what I know
Is that it hurts just to love you
Don’t you ever say you love me
When your lover was before me

I don’t know if you can see it
But every time I look at you
I see the lies through your teeth

I wish I knew what should have happened
So I can fix the broken glass
That you keep throwing at me

By My Own Hand

Heart beat is racing
As the knife scars my skin
Its to damn cold to mention
The fire that burns within

Blade of salvation
Slide across my wrist
To take me home tonight

The freezing knife
Makes chills go down my spin
What are these sweaty palms
Of mine

The reason why
Cause the arguments and the torment
Has wrung me dry
But still I’m craving for that moment

Yonder Way

Riley Vanderguilt. A normal teenager who’s arrogance has pushed someone way too far. No one really knows why Riley Vanderguilt was so mean and rancid until the day of her death when she was murdered by her so called best friend, Carla Miller.
December 8, 2003.
RILEY
"What’s wrong with you?"
CARLA
"Me?"
Riley:
"Yeah you! Why are you so damn nice all of a sudden?"
Carla:
"Excuse me? That’s just how I am Riley, what’s wrong with that?"
　
Riley:
"What’s wrong is you kissing ass all day just to get people to like you when you know that they only feel sorry for you."
Carla:
"Riley, don’t go there with me. You’re my friend, why are you acting like this?"
　
Riley:
"Why are YOU trying to steal my life?!"
　
Carla:
"Wait Riley, I’m not trying to steal anything from…"
Before Carla could even finish her sentence, she got a hand to the face from Riley. Riley screams out of anger,
Riley:
"I can’t stand you! Shut up!!"
Riley raised her hand to strike Carla in the face again, but she was stopped cold as Carla revealed the gun that she had hidden in her purse.
Carla:
"How dare you? You were my friend Riley, why would you ever do something like that to me?!"
Riley stares into the barrel of the gun, trembling with fear.
Riley:
"Carla wait, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean any of what I just said I swear!"
Carla stares at Riley with absolute disgust.
Carla:
"Now you say you’re sorry? After all the times that you embarrassed me and lied to me? NOW YOU SAY YOU’RE SORRY?!?!"
Tears start to fall from Riley’s eyes.
Riley:
"Please Carla, I’m sorry! I’m not lying to you Carla, I’m telling the truth!"
Carla:
"It’s too late Riley, I’ve had enough of your mess, EVERYONE has had enough of your mess!!"
Riley:
"Carla…"
Carla:
"SHUT UP! You know, all those times that I told you my secrets, and you turned around and told everyone in the whole school? Why would you do that Riley? I thought you were my friend!"
Riley:
"Carla, I never did that I swear."
Carla:
"You liar! You told everyone about me being gay, and about my mother being in jail. When people found out everyone was determined to make my life hell!"
Carla looks at Riley. Her anger starts to consume her at the very sight of Riley still breathing.
Carla:
"I loved you Riley! When you told everyone about me, I died. My soul just gave out and died because of you!"
Riley:
"Carla, please forgive me!"
Carla:
"I wish that I could. I wish that none of this ever happened. I wish that I never wanted to be with you Riley."
Tears start to fall from Carla’s eyes. Riley slowly starts to walk towards Carla.
Riley:
"Carla, I can change that. I can fix everything for you if you would let me try."
Carla:
"How Riley? Tell me how."
Riley:
"We can run away, just us. No one will ever know. We can be together, we can leave everything behind us Carla. We can start over."
Carla:
"Why would you want to do that?"
Riley:
"Because, I still love you Carla."
Carla stares into Riley’s eyes one more time as she aims the gun towards Riley’s heart.
Carla:
"I’m sorry Riley, but it’s too late."
Riley:
"Carla, no, please!"
Carla:
"Goodbye Riley."
Carla pulls the trigger. Staring at Riley’s cold lifeless corps, she aims the gun to her head.
Carla:
"We’ll be together in hell."
There’s a big bang. Moments later, someone sees the bodies and screams for help.

Fire Dragon

{verse 1}

I never told you
But you
Look so good
Wearing that jacket
With the
Red striped hood

They say your
Dangerous but
I don’t care
I’ll go through Hell
So I can
Feel your hair

{chorus}

I just wanna
Take you out
Tonight

I just wanna
Be with you
Tonight

I just wanna
Hold your hand
Tonight

Oh baby
Burn Me

I’m scorching
For you

{verse 2}

I should've told
You that you
Make me weak
When you walked
Past me man
I lost my speech

Before I meet
You I was
Always cold
But now I’m
Melting through
Your eyes of gold

{chorus}

I just wanna
Take you out
Tonight

I just wanna
Be with you
Tonight

I just wanna
Hold your hand
Tonight

Oh baby
Burn Me

I’m scorching
For you

Stormy Love

I’m telling you tonight
That though we’re bound to fight
All that I want to do is try

Just try to make it right
Lets try again tonight

Today
Even though we’re heading our separate ways
I never got the chance to say
I want to erase your pain
I want to make it all ok

To me
You’re everything I’ll never need
It took me far too long to see
That I need you here with me

I know
Though it never really shows
Under that concrete face of stone
You want my heart to be your home

Longing

Listening to your voice
Is everything to me
When you run your fingers through my hair
My heart will skip a beat

When I look into your eyes
I feel that I can fly
When you hold me close to you
Everything’s alright

And when you touched my face
It took me to this place
No one was there but you and me
With the moment we embraced

Dreaming Death Of Life

There I lay. I lay inside myself, alone, in the dark. With my eyes closed tight and my mind wandering, I lie alone in the darkness. Though my legs are strangely under my sheet, I am running, running so far and so fast. Though my hands are woven in my hair, they are carrying a sick faded child as I run. Though my nose is under my sheet, I can smell the leaves of the forest. Though I am still, cold, and dead, in reality I am warm and very much alive. I’m still running in the forest.
My ears pick up a sound, louder it gets. Fear strikes my heart and the girl in my arms gets closer to death. I run faster hoping the sound will fade and be lost, sadly the horrifying growl grows louder.
“Stop running,” whispered the girl in my arms, “please let me down.” I stopped to let her down; I looked into her eyes as I placed my hand on her cheek.
“You’re so cold.” I said to her. She placed her hand on my cheek, and stared into my eyes. The same growl from before shatter the moment of solicitude between the girl and I. I felt scared for the both of us.
“We have to move, the creature will kill you if I don’t get you out of here,” I tell her. I try to lift her on my back, but she won’t move. I look at her to see why she remains still; I find out that the roots and vines of the forest have her bonded to the ground. I hear the growling of the beast grow louder; it’s near.
“Stay with me, please protect me,” she said to me. Her eyes stared into my soul. I leaned towards her; I kiss her cheek, cold and white as snow.
“I will give my life to see you stand,” I said. With those words my fear vanished. I stood ready, ready to protect the girl, ready to fight. I stare into the dark, and I saw bright brown eyes, strangely similar to mine. “Show yourself! Reveal your purpose!” I say to this being.

The creature comes out of hiding, the growling stopped, and this mysterious creature stepped into the moonlight. It’s a woman; she’s so beautiful and elegant. I wonder why she has been after the girl and me all this time. She speaks to me,
“I have no desire to harm, I must inform you of the child, Imani…,”
“Wait! That’s my middle name!” I say to the woman. The woman says to me,
“Yes, that girl is your spirit; this darkness that we stand in represents the pain and fears that you have from your past. Imani is dying because your pain and fears are slowly devouring her day by day. The only one way to save her from her death is to overcome the darkness of your past. If not, then Imani will surely die.”
I look at Imani, I crouch down beside her. I wipe away the tear from her eye. I ask her,
“What can I do to save you?” She answers,
“Give me your hand and close your eyes, then you will see the pain I feel.”
I grab her hand. I close my eyes. I hear screams. I feel someone on top of me. I feel great pain between my legs. I yell for help. No one answers me. I scream out my lungs because the pain between my legs is unbearable. A hand holds my mouth shut. I try to get up. I try to get away. I’m held down. A hand goes across my face. I look up to see who is doing this to me. I see the face of my mother’s past lover.
Imani calls out for me; I can’t get to her. I can’t move. This man of twisted evil is stealing my soul. This man is killing me; I don’t want to die like this. I can feel Imani fading away. I feel numb. Imani is gone. The forest disappears. Reality has taken back control.
Though I can feel great pain, I’m numb. Though I’m trying to fight this man, I have no strength left in me. Though I am alive and breathing, I am dead. The pain of my past is an everyday reminder of the betrayal from the man that I once saw as my father.